にほんごがだいすきです！

That translates to "I love Japanese!"

Anyways, I need to talk about my winter break. Actually there is nothing to talk about my winter break. It's just play LoL all the time. League of Legends basically controlled my life. I had to play it. Even when I wanted to be productive, it was sitting there waiting for me to be played. "Playyyyy meeee Lorennn!" I had nothing else better to do, so I was like, "Sure, I could use some more Wins to get IP to get that awesome hero I always wanted." So I would play and play and play. Non-stop. There's this leaver penalty in the game too. If you left a game, then you get penalized and everyone was able to see "LEAVER" which almost everyone in LoL dislikes. So whenever my parents called, or my sisters talked to me, I would not be able to talk to them because I was too focused on the game. and If I left the computer, I would let my team down. Once I was in a game, I could not leave the computer and glued myself to LoL. It was pretty bad, I must admit.

I really think computer games are definitely go hand-in-hand with drugs. At least for people who have a long history of gaming in the past (like me). It's present, right next to you. You don't want to because it's bad, but u do it anyways. That's something I experienced in the winter break.

One thing I did find out though, was when I stopped fully from playing games, uninstalled LoL. I seriously had this feeling of being...free. I was free from the addictiveness of the game. I could do more productive things that make my parents happy. I could help them out, wash the dishes, learn to cook, walk my dog. There are so many other things I'd rather do than play LoL!

There's nothing to gain in LoL (except building a strong community). Get new heroes, get runes, get more masteries, more things! What happens in the end though? nothing! We keep playing, receiving the satisfactions of winning for a short while, and continue to find that feeling again. it's an endless sad cycle gamers love to do.

It reminded me of how minuscule the earthly things are compared to what God has planned for us. We sinful humans tend to strive fame, success, love, power, etc. But there's nothing else to gain after these achievements! God gives us Himself, His Kingdom, and eternal life. That is more worth it than anything in the universe! Look up to Him and make Him the prize!

Don't get the wrong idea - games are fun. I love video games. But there are times when video games become our god. As gamers, our lives revolve around it and once it's taken away, we become in despair. Tis' sad. Just a reminder that God is the center of our lives and we must not place anything else other than Him.

oh yeah! I also read Counterfeit Gods by Tim Keller this break. Learned about idolization of the earthly things and how it can lead us to despair. God is the answer! still reading it.

Also Pray for my semester. retaking two classes. Need extra good grades. hopefully someone will come across this blog and comment.

I heard everyone uses Tumblr. WELL I AINT ONE OF EM! :P

Good night, Austin TX