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I have not blogged in a while. I should be studying for the final right now. This year at UTSA has been great. You know, I have been a good person before college. I resisted drinking, i was even offered by my dad, and even when my sisters partying. Their friends asked, "What? You're not gonna drink? Wow, that's impressive." Honestly, I thought in college I could have broken it and somehow people will peer pressure me into doing it. I also cursed a lot. I thought it was normal. I stopped (or still trying not to). Thank God I have these people.
Who knows what I would've done in college. Probably become a bum, play games, not do anything fun. Thank you for the memories.
I was just a student, just hanging out with friends. Go to the rec, have fun. Get peer pressured into going to Epic. Peer Pressure works too well on me. It worked positively for me though. Beginning of the year, I always refused to go to epic, church, etc... It was a waste of time I thought. They just sing and talk about stuff I don't understand. No use. My friends start talking to me. Sean, on a late night walk home, says, "Do you believe in heaven?" I just stayed quiet. Grace, during Outreach (i had to go with her), had to do everything by herself cause i just followed her without knowing anything. She came to talk to me. I just stood quiet as well. One time during Starbucks, Alex Lee and Alex Liu were talking about relationships and related it with God. I had no idea what they were talking about. Saying random verses and such. "What do you think, Loren?" I never had a relationship with a girl. I wouldn't know. Then they took me outside and did solarium with me. They asked if i put Christ outside the circle, or if I put on the chair. I didn't want to offend them, but I also really didn't know what to believe. I said, "I don't know."
Then I hung out with them, and started to see why Epic did what they did. In a sense, I purposely didn't convert to see if my friends still viewed me differently if I wasn't Christian. If they treated me any different than others. I was testing them. They still saw me as a friend and treated me like one. And they still loved me.
They have love for Jesus. He is their savior. Yeah, they really love God.
I still need some questions that need to be answered on my own. During the summer, I hope to find one.

Oh, and people keep asking me this over and over again.
"Why do you like WALL-E so much?"
Other than being such a good movie, it especially captured my attention apart from the other Pixar Movies. I feel like I'm Wall-E, doing whatever in life. Just minding my own business and finding new games/hobbies. He finds EVE, goes on an adventure. and finally holds hands with EVE. I'm like Wall-E watching the Hello Dolly! musical on the iPod, hoping one day I will find 'her', whomever she is. I feel like I've missed so many oppurtunities. I'm like an incomplete Wall-E movie. Maybe God is telling me, not now, but later. God, give me the confidence to become a better man.
Yeah, that's why I like Wall-E :)